conclusion

what makes me really proud of myself, is that deep down i've become a quite positive person.



sunrise at home, oh.

“Only the very naive are capable of thinking that the nature of man can be transformed into a purely logical one…”
— Human, All Too Human Part I by Nietzsche

€€€ edit

recently, i'm totally up to saving money because my finances aren't good enough for my taste. although i'm having huge urges to buy certain stuff atm, i'm staying strong. like today, my boyfriend, his mum and i went to some bigger stores where i found some nice stuff i'd like to have but not extremely necessary. so i just let them there. also i'm working at a grocery store for 450€ a month, but thinking about some other ways of making money, for example i'm quite good at baking, so i had this idea about offering my skills as a hobbybaker to people who'd like to have some 'customized' cakes, cupcakes and so on-they'll be cheaper than the ones one can order from bakeries but will still get me some extra money. also i'm going to apply for a holiday job or something similar at a company at which i worked last year for 4 weeks which got me really nice money. some of my friends asked me if my 450€ wage isn't sufficient enough for me. actually, it is enough. but why should i be content with that, when i can have more?

oh and also i'm selling some clothes at a site called kleiderkreisel, have a look at my catalogue and my profile, i have a list of other stuff than clothes (for example a Samsung Galaxy Ace) which i'm selling! have a look here

thanks, fuck you too a.k.a. the effort

my heart overflows with feelings

my head with thoughts

my soul with desire

my mind with with sadness

and i wish i was gifted

to make people understand

about this flood

but so i drown







it’s killing a part of my heart how some of those i call my closest friends let distance become the reason of a lack of contact
i tried, you never mind
and a part of my heart died

time

and time goes by, and with it people do so, and you stay still
they run around you, towards you, or away from you
while you don't ever realize
that you're running on your own very way


Rihanna ft. Mikky Ekko - “Stay” (Full Version... von wonderful-life1989

always

and at the end i always know, i'll always love life.

keep that in mind

"Be happy for no reason, like a child. If you are happy for a reason, you’re in trouble, because that reason can be taken from you."
-Deepak Chopra

am i tired?

do you know this feeling, when you're not sad and not really sick of life, but just not motivated or interested in doing anything? like, i don't even really feel like blogging. wow, that's what she said. and i don't want to do anything around the house or go to the gym. but at the same time i don't want to waste time. the only things that seem to be practicable are internet surfing, watching movies, reading and eating a bunch of (junk) food. sloth-mode activated.

oh happy new year by the way guys. i don't want to be rude haha.